Lately i am being so obsessed with drawing and designing .. 

but ... umm, i draw and design not at the right time ....

cuz if i am to draw, it would not be nice...

I always got the mood when i am in biology class .. that's awkward i know, but its the fact ...

to be honest ! my biology class is super boring ...!!!

And test tomorrow, good luck to me :D

-- the CHRISTMAS CONCERT !! --

well, forgot to post, wednesday, which is on the 14th of DECEMBER 2011 is the best orchestra that my school ever had .. As in my previous school, we have no orchestra or choir or even ensemble to held us performing on stage ... that was wonderful , indeed FASCINATING !!!

umm, we have to use heels and wear black and red ! it looks perfect for us all, the chamber choir !
haha, i am inside the chamber choir, and i sang the soprano part .. but stage picture i don't have one, none of my family came cuz they were not here, so sad  .. aah, but its alright, be happy .. i just got myself taking picture for myself ... i know its narcism ... but its alright, ima girl !! hahaha.. be happy bout it <3

this is me and friends during christmas concert ..
first time meeting nina ! talked a lot, but she left so soon, world is so small, she is now in a class with carissa, and was in yes chung before ..
see you in jakarta nina !!

oh fine .. not talking about christmas concert again, conclude ... it was so great!!!

Sad Sour days

It started when he shift his school from Orlando to Los Angeles, LOL, its not because i don't like him being in a new location, but that i was so happy that he could finally found a place where he could actually learn something meaningful... he can now learn how to manage his homework, his time and personal activities, i am sure he is happy there...

Umm, i don't want to say something which seems to make me jealous , but then it was fine now, i don't think he will really make me jealous, love yaa love yaa .. hahahhaa ..

I know i shouldn't get myself into thinking of bad situations all the time, i tried to calm myself but telling myself he is the kindest person i had known up till now, no one had treated me better than him, i am so thankful to have you inside my life (LOL, today's thanksgiving too .. thank you for everything i got up till now, i should not be regret for everything i have been through, love you <3)

umm, another thing to say is this sad thing started last thursday, i felt something has changed between the two of us, i tried not to think, try not to worry, try to smile, try to make things feel better, but just that everything went wrong ! i hate that .... this feelings is really hurt, i felt things just went wrong ...

What makes me feel worst is that he said "time would make our memories gone" no!!! that should not happen, i was so sad, depressed and mind complicated... stuck in a situation where i don't know what to do... please do help me !!! my mind is like bursting, but thanks god this week homework is not as much as  the previous week, which will make me collapse if it were this week ....

Starting from friday last week, my tears had started to roll down my cheeks, but i hold it beneath me, not intending to let anyone see, i should always smile, a big happy smile so that others can be happy as well, i hate sad expression... but i don't know, i just can't get stop to think ... and this really makes me awake for many many days at night, my eyes were kinda swollen... hahaha, its no problem, i get used to it too :D

I can understand that being in a relationship, couples do break up not always because they are cruel, mean... some people may break up because they just play with girls, but some also for the sake of may be one of them, or some is because of how cruel time is ! time ! time ! time ! time can really change a lot of things, making it worst! they really do make our memories vanished .. but me , don't worry my darling, i will always remember you , bury you underneath the bottom of my heart ...

I will never regard you as a cruel person, i promise you .. i do think you are the only person who can understand my feelings clearly ... i hope faith will let us to be together ...

I will close my heart from now onwards, like i did before, i will not let anyone inside, as if you let anyone inside, it is very difficult to release the person <3 <3 <3

Where goes my voice??

LOL ... I gotta collapse soon .....

School's show king and I is this friday! this is actually a pride for me and my school for setting up the show "KING AND I" ... a very wonderful show .. you guys should come and watch it ..

Hong kong, Kowloon tong, Yew Chung secondary International School

each ticket = HK$150

it really worth watching ~

see you guys there on friday and saturday, 2 times show ..

but ticket were mostly sold out on friday .. be fast!

I am going as part of the choir group, the voice ... for which i am singing as soprano inside ! wonderful voice combination ...!

but dooommeeeddd!

I had a very bad sore throat! I need medicine !!! I need my sound ..

how can i sing in this condition ..

All i have to do is force myself to sing ,but then i would not have more sound after the show!

I'll try to get well soon .. bless me kay ....~

I had been practicing hard since yesterday, we disperse at 7:15 yesterday night!

so hungry!!!

my lunch time in school is at 11:50, and I haven't ate dinner until 8 ...

my head was like lacking energy, head paining like nail drilling inside ..

TORTURE !!!

and what thing makes me so happy yesterday was !

We actually had class music recital today, and oh god! so happy when i read an email from my music teacher that it was canceled !!! hahahaha !!!

happiest thing ever, i was actually planning to practice up to 10 ,.... hahaha !!!

i was freakin' happy!

I chat like an hour with my mom and my boyfriend!

Not knowing what time will we end for our rehearsing today ...

but hope it would not be so late, because i have chinese presentation to do the day after tomorrow ... and it will count as out IBO mark, which is 10% of our IB result ...

looking forward to you guys on friday night and saturday night !

ENJOY THE SHOW ~~ !!!

My Birthday

umm, it's 1 AM pass something already ,.. fine! its not the 5th of november anymore ..!!
I'd like to tell you guys about how i celebrate my 16th birthday party ..
My birthday was celebrated in Hong Kong , a wonderful birthday celebration, although not much people come to celebrate with me, but i am full satisfied already ..

First i'd like to tell, which is something that happen at 12:00 yesterday midnight ! a very great surprise from my boyfriend, he was having a class, but then, he was so caring and i don't know how that he manage to call me at the exact time 12:00 AM of the 5th of November, I was so happy last night, that i just manage to sleep at the time of almost 2..


I was so happy too once i woke up from my sleep .. because of the stupid internet in my house , that broke at the most inappropriate timing .. FINE! i don't care ! hahaha .. I went to the club house of my house and video call with my boyfriend for like .. yea .. hours .. not so long, cuz i don't know why that he disappeared like in the middle of the conversation! hahaha .. what makes things more crazier is ......... he disturb his friends, or whatever, may be his classmate, or even his roommate .. to say happy birthday to me ! ooopss! forgot to tell something, he called a girl , purposely to say happy birthday to me !! oh come on! although this really sounds happy to me, but then you disturb her so much, although we never met each other before, but hope we could meet each other one day, and nice to know you :) I know my boy friend is quite crazy today, like so called "HYPER-active" LOL .. this is saying the truth ..
anyways my darling , don't get offended okay, this is just kidding !


at 12 o'clock, I did went home, so tired after sitting hours in the club house! Sucks! i thought internet was perfectly well already at that time, but then, to my very very disappointment! i broke! shooootttt !!! oh fine! I'll have to call my boyfriend with my home telephone number, hehe .. I don't mind , grandma's not here, no one gonna ask me who am i talking to on the phone ...
BUT! yea!!! I forgot i promised to phone my mom once i finished chatting with him, but then i didn't, oh .. sorry mom! i know you want to spend some time for me on my birthday..


Oh then ! I start to organize my things! i need to go KTV with my friends, anyways .. its just 3 of them, but then they are my friends that helped me a lot in the days of IB, thank you ~
At the time I met them, surprise! everyone got their own birthday presents for me, oh my god! so touched! I was like don't know what to speak at that time, all that i can speak out is just thank you , actually i want to show something more than that of a "thank you", but then nothing came out of my mouth!
these 3 friends that come along to help me celebrate my birthday are :
DENNIS, CRYSTAL and LILY !!! they are all really a good friend to me ..

Crystal gave me a lot of present , which is a very good design, i know it is her who designed herself, I love it so much, it is a box of "crabtree and evelyn", as i knew that brand is the things that sell nice smell stuffs, like body lotion, soap , that smells like a perfect essence, but then when i opened the box, it was more of a surprise, not that it is just the things of crabtree and evelyn, but there are hair bands, hand lotion, face mask and something that is put below the eyes, to remove panda eyes, there is a candle that if you burn would make the room a perfect smell! love it so much .. it was given to me with a very big plastic "choose juicy" .. haha, perfectly cute to me !!


As for lily, she gave me a very cute necklace of "Agatha" brand , which is selling some kind of jewelleries made from paris! ooohh! I love that too ..
The picture is a doggy, cute!


for dennis , he gave me something that make the room a nice essence smell .. some kind of white flower looks at the top, with a string beneath, which is then dipped to the essence solution and then would give out a very nice smell for the room!


thank you my 3 friends, you are all so nice to me, it is really a great surprise to me!
I am so so so very very very happy!


And after singing , chatting , etc. Me and denis decided to go back first as we had made our own appointments with somebody.. me, with my family.. he, may be with Anfernee, introducing him .. yea, he is a genius in mathematics! a freakin' genius person, born same day, same month and same year with me, wow! I knew a lot people having the same birthdays as me, but then , so sad .. they have a very good brain, but then for me , i am always on a bad situation for memorizing things ! i felt so so so sad .. but then , i believe, if i work hard, nothing could stop me from achieving a perfect grade !


Reaching my uncle's house , entering the house was a greetings from my maid ,Siti... a good maid to me .. and a blessings for my birthday... Followed by my auntie, and she gave me a birthday present too with an Ang bao ! do anyone knows what's this? haha, LOL .. inside contains money, i know everyone knows it .. about the gift, i will open it tomorrow, i will see another surprise tomorrow, but not today, ahahha,,, its alright ~


It was a perfect dinner party for me to celebrate my birthday, PIZZA, MC donald and sushi was delivered home, a very big dinner feast, Siti cooked red eggs which as she said symbolize a long life, we all have to eat that .. ahhaha ..! everyone ate until they are like totally full!
I even cut my birthday cake, cool .. a perfect one! taste so nice! it's from Maxim! maxim cakes really taste perfectly delicious .. yummy yum !!
umm, i didn't have the picture today, fine lets see tomorrow if i could get it from my uncle ..


When i was cutting my cake, suddenly connie, my cousin and my auntie shout at the same time, telling me not to cut it until it gets to the bottom, i surprisely asked why, do anyone knew what they said??
they said that i could not get married if it was cut up till the very bottom .. shocked me LOL


we all chat like they say i could find a boyfriend at this age .. bla blablaaaa ... much more!
hahaha .. !!!!!


We reached home like 10, cuz uncle drank beer and of course he was not allowed to drive, but then , great ! a good respiration process for me after a very haft dinner! hahaha!


After counting until 12 which would be the start of 6th november, there are 146 person blessings to me .. so so so happy! which i can say, first one is my boy friend, the person that i love the most other than my dear parents. 
I knew a lot of friends .. I hope in this year, i could make more and more and more friends, hope no one would hate me .. I would try to be a better person that everyone would love in the future, I would try to change my bad habits and be a good girl ! I promise myself I would try!


for my first birthday wish, I wish for the person I love to be in a good health and always in a good position or state.
For my second birthday wish, I wish me and my boyfriend would be like forever together, which could be say, he should be my future husband... hahaha, although still early to think of this
For my third birthday wish, I wish I could delete all my bad habits, and forget all the bad things that I had done and that vision that let me unable to forget, the things that i really is guilty, i want to change, please forgive me for the things i had done wrong ..


fine! its so late now, i gotta go to bed, gotta blog next time ~ good night !!